You'd probably never guess this but I'm an introvert.
People are always surprised when I identify with this group because I'm so quirky and outgoing.
So often introverts are painted with brush strokes that leave them nailed to the wall as people too afraid to talk, even if they wanted to.
Obviously that is not me.
I love people. I love to be around people. But being around people comes at a huge cost for me--namely that it is draining (in a good way, but still).
Sometimes I want to run away from it all. I don't want another hug or phone call. I want to log off Facebook and turn off the phone.
I. Want. To. Be. Alone.
Not alone with my family but alone with me.
Because I learned a long time ago that when I don't have serious alone time, I get edgy(ier). I stop being able to do the things I really like to do, like write, because my focus is all off. I start to pull away from the ones I love--I can't give them the best of me when I feel like I've lost the best of me.
It's be a long time since I've really been alone. I mean, I always dive into my hot shower and stay put for a half hour just to recollect myself but I feel like I need something more.
Like a whole day where I'm not connected to social networks. A whole day where time is NOT of the essence. A day where I can sleep in (or not), watch cheesey movies (or not), listen to my music or sit in silence. A day to stop, stand still, listen, and refresh.
I need to be alone.
Because when I've been alone, I really look forward to seeing the people I miss. I'm filled to the brim with energy and I'm ready to re-connect.
What I Think is that I need a peace retreat where I can be alone.
How about you?